When my husband passed away in March 2016 I felt abandoned, left behind to fend for myself. Now, leaving the year 2016 behind, I feel an easing of my grief. But I do not want to leave him behind; I want him always in my present. Perhaps I am getting near to that place where I can keep him close while moving forward. Combining my current … Continue reading Left Behind
Emergence – the process of coming into being. When I awoke on December 1 it was as if I had opened the wrong door. The door to December 2015 instead of December 2016. It opened to a space filled with all the anguish, fear, love, and poignancy of twelve months ago. A month that drew on a deep well of reserves that I didn’t know … Continue reading Emergence
The coming of Fall heralds more change. So much has changed in the last months. The most difficult of changes is me – discovering, accepting, my life without my other half. Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and gardening has produced this series. Please click on the image for a better view. Continue reading Change
Some days I spend so much energy fighting the loneliness and fear that I have nothing left. Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and gardening has produced this series. Please click on the image for a better view. Continue reading Depleted
Just when I think there are no more tears left, something like an anniversary comes along. I woke this morning with my eyes already welling with tears and as I blinked they escaped and dropped to pool on my pillow. Today marks the day I fell in love with my husband. Just like that. Over dinner. Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and … Continue reading Desiccated
A memory is triggered and becomes physical pain and I feel like I have been fooling myself in believing that I am working through this grief. Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and gardening has produced this series. Please click on the image for a larger view. Continue reading Mourning
The thing about grief, even as I have begun to incorporate ‘widow’ into who I am so that it no longer surprises me when I wake up each morning, my eyes still tear at the simplest moments, like looking at the box of oatmeal because that’s what he had for breakfast each morning. Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and … Continue reading Anguish
Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and gardening has produced this series. Please click on the image for a larger view. Continue reading Empathetic
Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and gardening has produced this series. Please click on the image for a larger view. Continue reading Supplicant
Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and gardening has produced this series. Please click on the image for a larger view. Continue reading Fragile
Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and gardening has produced this series. Continue reading Isolated
Some of you already know that I recently lost my husband. These last months have been filled with a range of emotions as I struggle through my grief. Working in my garden and on my photographs seem to be two things that totally occupy my mind providing a bit of respite from trying to come to terms with, and redefine, my life. Combining my current state with … Continue reading Stricken
Some of you already know that I recently lost my husband. These last months have been filled with a range of emotions as I struggle through my grief. Working in my garden and on my photographs seem to be two things that totally occupy my mind providing a bit of respite from trying to come to terms with, and redefine, my life. Combining my current state with … Continue reading Shattered
Paula at Lost in Translation invited Tobias M. Schiel to host her Thursday’s Special challenge, the theme being organized noise. Please read his interesting and thought provoking post. I really like the term ‘organized noise’; it has such possibilities. What rang true for me was Tobias’ comment – ” . . . there is also the aspect of organizing noise into music – or visual ‘noise’ into pictures. Some … Continue reading Photo Editing: Organized Noise
Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: blue or purple flowers Continue reading The Blues
I spent all of December at the hospital with my husband and it became my only source of subject matter, but I took photographs to distract myself. Now at home I have begun to view and edit them and as I do so I realize my editing choices are very much connected to my experience. I suppose this is always true – we are, after all, the sum … Continue reading Photo editing – we are what we edit
“Life is fragile. We’re not guaranteed a tomorrow so give it everything you’ve got.” – Tim Cook – the chief executive officer of Apple Inc. Click on image for a larger view Weekly Photo Challenge: Weight(less) Continue reading Bubble/6
The older I get, the more the past becomes a blur, my childhood something that rests within the frame of an old photograph. Weekly photo challenge: Blur Continue reading The older I get
“I thought about the relentless thought-processing, soul-devouring machine that is my brain, and wondered how on earth I was ever going to master it. Then I remembered that line from Jaws and couldn’t help smiling: ‘We’re gonna need a bigger boat.” ― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love Continue reading Visual Quotation 68: Life
The mark of your ignorance is the depth of your belief in injustice and tragedy. What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the Master calls the butterfly. – Richard Bach, American Novelist Weekly photo challenge: Depth Continue reading Visual Quotation 67: Depth
Beyond the Brush 