Some days I spend so much energy fighting the loneliness and fear that I have nothing left.
Combining my current state of grief with my pastimes of art and gardening has produced this series. Please click on the image for a better view.
Beyond the Brush
From the right side of my brain – Visual Arts, Travel, Photography and the Written Word
Beyond the Brush 
One step at a time…and having plans for the week ahead helps a lot….and I still do that. If I see a totally empty week ahead, I plan stuff
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It does help, it was good advice. Isolating myself will make this so much worse. I understand from your comment, Sue, that you have suffered this loss too. Whenever it may have been I offer my condolences and sympathy to you. This is, for me, the worst days of my life.
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Well, if it is any consolation, it does get better….
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Fear is hard to conquer, but maybe if you think of each day as a gift, an adventure, a new door hiding a new opportunity. Plan fun times with friends, find a support group. If you don’t have a pet, get one. Then you can talk to them, not yourself, and they are a reason for living. Hugs.
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Thank you, Carol. I haven’t yet reached a point when I can think of each day as a gift, though I know it is. It is still a day without him. A friend who has been through this twice told me to always a have a plan for tomorrow, something to form my day around and I do that and it helps. I’m having friends in for dinner this weekend for the first time. I will miss him because he was always such a great help and going solo makes me feel sad but at the same time like I am making a statement, to myself, about going forward. But I don’t know if that makes me feel good, or sad. And my Cooper, black lab, he gets an earful every day. He’s a very good listener and great solace. I appreciate your comments.
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Good for you! It’s one day, one step, at a time.
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I’m conflicted though. Moving forward equates in my heart as moving away from him.
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I understand how you could feel that way, but I don’t think that’s what it would be. He will always, always be with you, in your heart and memories, in his spirit. And what would he want for you? I don’t think he would want you to be unhappy. He loved you – when you love someone you want what’s best for them.
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All rational things my mind understands. I expect my heart will catch up, at some point. I appreciate the dialogue on this, Carol.
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I understand. The mind and the heart are not always on the same schedule.
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Lovely, are they bracken?
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They are ferns growing in my garden, but I don’t know what type.
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I see similar types in my wetlands areas over the winter. I love their textures and the way they fold over, as if hugging themselves. So many ‘ferns’, I have so little knowledge of them.
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The green leaves are reaching out to comfort the brown leaves. Very pretty.
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